Tuesday, May 01, 2007

I'm brushing up on my Turkish

Why is my blogger at school in Turkish?

Some kid's been messing with my computer. My google screen even comes up in Turkish. I've tried to change it back, but I can't.

I'm starting to pick up a few words, at least.

Anyway, my doctor knocked some sense into me yesterday as we got to hear the heartbeat again--yay! I don't think it will ever stop being cool. On the negative side, I've been obsessing about my weight (big shocker there) as the books I've been reading say you're supposed to gain "2-4 pounds in the first trimester."

Ha ha ha ha ha haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Not even close.

But the thing is, I've been eating REALLY well lately--I see stories of people having huge fast food binges or Ben and Jerry's benders, and that's not me. I do have the occasional Mitchell's Sundae (for those of you who don't live in Cleveland, allow me to explain. It's the best damn ice cream around, and I think it even has surpassed Graeter's in my book which is HARD TO DO. I am quite the ice cream connoisseur.) Now that the nausea's gone, I have been really getting back to the organic fruits and veggies and whole grains and stuff.

But my NUMBER on the scale just SOUNDS way too big to me. Agh! My friends at work assured me that it's largely water weight and that I don't LOOK like I weigh the number. (See? I can't even type it. It's that big) I guess I just am still scared about that a bit. The doc told me exactly what my friends have told me...it's largely water weight, and I'm a very fit person, and I will be fine. I'm eating healthy, and I'm doing some easy workouts 4-5 times a week. What else could I possibly do? Relax, she said. She said my weight gain is fine, so I am trying to relax.

It's just hard to see it climb so fast when I fought so hard to get it down, you know?

Wil assured me that I have nothing to worry about, too, and that I'll leave a lot in the delivery room. (Sorry if that's TMI. Remember, I don't want to know the details, either.)

It makes me laugh a bit at how much this kid's already changing me. For instance, the "plan" is usually to run X amount of miles per week, hold my tempo pace at this pace, swim this amount of yardage, and climb Y amount of hills. And I do that really well.

The "plan" this year on paper is to gain X amount of weight in the first trimester, Y amount in the second, and I don't even know in the third. But, from what the doctor says and from what my wise buddies say, if that baby wants my body to gain 7 pounds in one month, then that's what's going to happen. I don't have a whole freakin' lot of say in the matter.

It's pretty amazing, when you think about it. I thrive on telling my body what to do each day--that's what got me to the finish line of an Ironman. And this whole thing really is forcing me to realize that I have NO WAY TO DO THAT...but it's still working. The baby is supposedly the size of a large onion right now. And I didn't tell my body to do anything.

It just did it.

I think I'll remember that next year when I'm training and racing again. Sometimes, you just gotta shut up and go. The body will do what you need it to do. Quit worrying about it!

In the meantime, I'm going to try really hard to stop asking Matt if "I really look like I weigh ______ pounds." He's doing really well at the knee-jerk quick NO-OF-COURSE-NOT, but even patient Matt is about ready to smack me.

(And I probably wouldn't blame him.)


Wes said...

Turkish!?!? LOL. You crack me up :-) As fit as you are, that weight is just going to come right off, especially if you decide to breast feed. Tee hee. We'll need some clinical observations from hubby, a passionate witness, if you decide to go that route ;-) Not that you can't give us your own observations. Hell, you already have. Oh, just damn. I'll shut up now :-)

Michele said...

Don't worry about the weight. You are in great shape, you will drop it all very quickly.
I was almost 200 pounds by the time I had my second child.

KC said...

yes, i was over 2 bills when I had my son. that represented a 55+ pound weight gain. and you know what happened? it all came off. all of it and more.

so, like everyone says, you're going to be fine.

and by the way, i love reading about your pregnancy. you are a great writer - so glad i found the blog.

Kurt said...

You can toss that paper for weight gain right out. It will be what it is going to be. My wife varied all over with each child.

ninjamarathonman said...

Long time reader, first time poster.

Amen on the ice cream! Cleveland may lack many things but ice cream is not one (Honey Hut to Mitchell's, you can't go wrong).

Mallie said...

I second, third and fourth everyone who's telling you not to sweat it. You were in great shape when you got preggers and you're keeping yourself healthy with good eating and regular exercise. You'll drop the weight easily and be back to your old self, with even bigger knockers, before you know it!

Kate said...

What everyone else said :-)

JenC said...

Sweetie, you look great, healthy, not like you are gaining too much weight at all.

Good luck with the Turkish!

DaisyDuc said...

Yes, I agree with all the others, being the healthy, fit chick that you are, I have little doubt it will all come off!

I am 100% with you on the ice cream. I may be a bigger ice cream junkie than you and have tried nearly everywhere and Mitchell's ice cream is my favorite...if only I could get their ice cream in the waffle cone of another place it would be perfection!

Jennifer P said...

Been there, done that and ditto what everyone else says. I packed on 60lbs with the Lentil and trust me, it will come off. Your body is smarter than you are.

Jodi said...

ugh. I feel for you. Gaining weight blows. But you have such a glorious reason to do it!



Chris said...

It's been a while... but I'm lurking and still glad to hear that all has been well with you. :) It's definitely a change of pace from this time last year, eh?

I sent you an email or two over the past few months? Have you gotten them?

Cliff Tam said...

Isn't getting pregnant give u a free pass on beinging?

Forgot to say.congrats on you having a baby.....

IM and Baby...2006-2007..must be memorable years for u.

21stCenturyMom said...

Im sure you've seen this number but JUST the baby, the amniotic fluid, the placenta and your increased blood volume (not to mention boob volume) accounts for 24 pounds. You MUST gain at least that much.

What everyone else said that I'm sure you find annoying ;-) (you'll be fine!)

teacherwoman said...

I can only imagine what you are going through. I struggle with the idea of gaining a couple pounds, and I am not pregnant. I am sure all the weight is good for the baby! And I KNOW you will work it all off after giving birth!

Julia said...

I take the prize for preg weight gains but both my babies were 10 lbs at birth :-O

It all came off within a few months.

Btw, when I was fretting about the weight gain in the fifth month my husband tossed the scale *literally* out the window. It smashed to a hundred pieces and I stopped worrying about it for the rest of the pregnancy.

qcmier said...

Hmm, I used to love Stoddard's, then Strickland's, then Mitchell's, now I am loving Graeter's. Maybe it's just what is the most available.

TriShannon said...

You are having a baby... no worrying about numbers! Regardless, I'm sure you still look good!

Mmmn... ice cream!

Siren said...

I'm going to buck the trend and agree that it's freaky to have the scale so suddenly and completely out of our control. If one more person tells me that I'm just going to gain weight and I should just enjoy it and eat whatever I want I'm gonna go clocktower.

My doctor said someone who was as already as overweight as I am, and with such well-established healthy eating habits, technically does not have to gain any weight at all. She's going to monitor things closely to make sure the baby's getting what it needs, but the goal for now is for me to simultaneously lose fat and gain baby. She insists it's possible - and safe - for me to weigh the same I do on delivery day as I do today.

One heck of a challenge, but one I'm willing to take on considering I just spent 4 years losing 60 pounds and I don't know what I'd do if I gained half of it back in 6 months.