Well, I can walk and sit down unassisted again, and in general you shouldn't make any decisions before you can walk or sit down.
I immediately started to research marathons in the fall. Presque Isle sold out, which was annoying. Then I found a few other ones through friends--one geared towards a BQ in Illinois; one in the Upper Peninsula of Michigan. They were in late-August or early-September, because if I wanted to do this and register in time, then I'd need to do it then. Which means I'd need to take a quick 4 week recovery, if possible, and then throw myself back into it.
I've been focused on marathons for about year now--right after the attacks last year was when I set my sights on it.
I don't really want to do another marathon this soon. I do but I don't. I do because I am pissed off. I don't because it's not a good decision for me or for my family.
Doing a marathon because you're pissed isn't a good enough reason to do it. Then I'll be running angry all summer. That's not a good way to spend a summer.
My original plan was to qualify and then get back to triathlons, which I love. I put Rev3 Cedar Point on hold last year so I could qualify in Columbus. When I missed it by a minute there, I threw myself back into training to do it in the spring. And I tried--twice.
I learned a few things:
1. I have work to do still.
2. It needs to NOT be hot. That is really, really important for me.
3. Training during the Polar Vortex Winter, even with good friends, was a bit soul-crushing. Spring marathons are a no-go.
4. Training through summer is much easier on my life, both personally and professionally.
So if I don't try this fall, that means next fall. And I didn't want to wait a year and a half to try again, but that's what's going to have to happen. Because see Exhibit A on "running angry." Just not a good reason, or a good idea.
I think I can not only run a 3:40, but run solidly below 3:40. But I need to think about what's best for my family and for me.
My plan has always been to do Rev3 Cedar Point and crush my best 70.3 time, which I did 6 months after Emery was born. Last year I put it on hold. The other thing is that my buddy Andy is also going to do it. And Jackson and his little guy are BFFs from Kindergarten--we talked about our two families going in on a condo, making it a fun family weekend, etc. I can train all summer, with friends. It's not *just* running, which has taken a toll on me and beat me up over the past year. I can enjoy early morning swims in the lake, long rides in the summer with friends, and not feel as much pressure to GET IT DONE HURRY UP QUALIFY OR LIFE ENDS which is how I've felt lately, and which is just silly.
Maybe my friends will qualify again and go with me later. Or not, and I go out there alone. Either way, I'll get there.
So the plan will be:
Racing for Hope 5K: June 28th. I'll be EXTREMELY tired and jet-lagged after a super fun opportunity I'm going to do, but it will be a fun time.
July 14th: Summer Triathlon in Lorain--Possible sprint tri, or I may volunteer to get me a free entry to the next one below...
Huntington Sprint Tri July 27th: Again, I'll be EXTREMELY tired and jet-lagged, but it will be fun. I'm heading to Stanford University from the 20th-26th for a pretty cool opportunity that I got, and will be really really exhausted, but oh well! It's fun.
Vermilion Harbor Triathlon: Olympic Distance, August 17th. Use it as a nice tune-up for Rev3
Rev3 70.3 Triathlon: September 7th. Also the day my brother and sister-in-law are due, so we'll be close enough to hop in the car and get to the hospital to hold my new niece or nephew :)
November 23rd: Fall Classic Half Marathon. I think it's about time I obliterate my current PR of 1:47 in the half, considering I just did that and then kept going at that pace for 7 more miles. Coach thinks I could break 1:40. That would be fun to try for.
Then, reassess. Figure out if I have changed my mind on the spring marathon, but I don't think so. Then think Fall 2015 for another shot at a full.
You know what? Typing all that makes me a LOT happier than typing: "Run a full marathon by September 14th or I am a Worthless Person."
Time to dust off my goggles and CD0.1. It's been way too long since I've spent time with my old friends.